20 December 2007

i'm not okay..
i'm not oooooooooo-kayyyyyyyy..
now you should really listen to me
bcos i'm telling you should..
i'm.. not.. ok..
TRUST ME.

BLEAGH.
results out.

let's seeeeee.

at 6am on 19/12/07.
this is what i call morning shock/surprise/wow.

scary?
oh well. at least you can pray in your own privacy.
yep.. like bowing down to the computer.
saying....
ohhhhh mama tolonglahh..
papa tolonglahh..
SAYA MAHU KAHWIN!

oh crap, don't worry giler laa.

back on track.
results were seriously, shocking/expected/wow at the same time.
add those up plus a pinch of regret..
not regret but sadness.
lol it makes the perfect morning breakfast.


exact screenshot of what my eyes see.

to make it a bit simpler. in order of highest to lowest.

Biology: 86/100
Maths: 81/100
Chem: 76/100
Physics: 76/100
English: 75/100
Maths Ext 1: 34/50

in a normal person term that result is a wow.
definition of normal person: a secondary school kid.

in a freakish person term that result sucks.
it won't take me anywhere. haha not really that's exaggerating.
but it won't take me anywhere the freakish people go.
and definition of freakish people: THE UNIVERSITIES.

welll...
let's go in depth.

UNEXPECTED IN A BAD WAY.
Biology, and English.
damn.

UNEXPECTED IN A GOOD WAY.
Chem and Physics, 3 unit Maths.
and even worse i got the same marks for that both subjects.
and obviously, i passed 3 unit. YAY :)

EXPECTED.
Maths. yes.

oh welll.
and so, i got over it.
but then nsw board of studies is trying to be mean, or mean.
so we have to wait for another 27 hours to actually see our FINAL SCALED MARKS.
out of 100. and our entrance mark for uni.

as quoted from my last entry.

"of which i have to get more than 85.00 to actually see the light of Bachelor of Medical Science at University of New South Wales.
of which i have to get 90.00 and above to actually secure my place in that same course."

yes that one.



sadly and quite sadly.
i got.. 82.00.
3.00 mark down.
shattered? a bit for a few hours.
but then i got over it.

mother inspiration in me talked to me.
and of course, YOU.
i felt much better.

cos that results is not the end of the world.
it actually marks the beginning of life.
and, as what YOU said..
being happy and successful in life is not about numbers.
its about how much you believe in yourself, how much you have faith in yourself, and how much you NEVER STOP TRYING no matter how hard it is.
YES.

and being in a land full of opportunity like, Australia.
i should feel contented and happy.

as of my university next year?
if a miracle happens, i would get into medical science.
cos they have bonus points for getting above 80 in subjects..
and bonus points for those who haven't been in Australia long enough.
example. me.

but if it doesn't.
its ok.
most likely and about 70% chance i'll get into bachelor of science (flexible).
but being flexible, i can study hard and transfer to medical science in 2nd year.
and blah blah.

anyway.
we'll just wait till 17 January where i'll get my uni offers.
then we'll talk.
ok? yes.

but to sum it all up.
i'm happy, contented and proud of myself that i actually completed my hsc or a level equivalent.
life's about to start for me. anyone joining? :)

sadaf.
hopefully we stick together.
and yes you still owe me the treat.
AHHH YUM!

and nooooooorulssss.
i'll see you in uni next year.
and thank you so much for sticking with me all this while.

oh and to my singaporean smartest friend.
raihana abdul wahab.
congrats on the 99.40. you rock la beb.
and hope you get into pharmacy.

right now i wanna work.
work work.
cos why?
kuala lumpur here i come.
here we come actually.
WHEEEEEEE.
when?
lol. let's keep it between ourselves first ok noorul?

peace up a town down.

i love you.

don't worry about a thing, cos every little thing's gonna be alright..