06 October 2006
this post.
will be one of my impt posts ive ever posted.
another one of which is for my bff i think months back. yeah.
but. before that.
i'll tell u how im going today and yesterday.
hah. so prompt.
ok.
yesterday. was my free day.
i practically stayed at home la.
but went out for i think 2 hrs aje.
go buy books for my year 12 term. heh.
other than that i cleaned up the clutter in my room.
so its clean la. and halfway ready for the new term.
proud of myself. thank you.
and also. yesterday night.
i had a longgggggg chat with my baby sister.
siti nurnabilah norazman.
gosh i miss her so much.
oh well. we talked abt everything i guess.
and she can't wait to come here.
atleast i have company when she's here. apart from bobo. haah.
decided to sleep at 10pm last night but ended up sleeping at 1am.
gosh.
woke up at 3.30am for sahur this morning.
den got ready for work.
started at 6am ok.
crazy. the city is so dead laa.
and im half asleep heh.
so now im feeling super lethargic.
but then again. i have to do what i should.
for a friend. yes.
you know how pple say long distance relationship doesnt last.
well. i dun believe in it though.
im still in contact with my friends.
believe it. yes u should.
because those friends are like one in a million who took me seriously.
even when i dun always look serious.
im talking abt u know who they are.
well if u don't.
kudos to bff, kbs, ff, and irah.
yes im talking.
and because of them, i learnt that friendship is one of the serious things in life that shouldnt be taken for granted. never.
it doesnt matter if u have a million people who know you.
it doesnt matter how popular u are.
at the end of the day, its just a couple of them who will stick by you.
now this goes out to one of my best friend.
a friend whom i've known since 4th january 2002.
nurul fairuz abd razak. this is for you my favourite friend and more.
ok first this may sound corny but just imagine im right beside you ok.
i just wanna tell u that no matter how far i am right from u,
there's no excuse for me to not keep updated with you and others.
i am always with you. i am always with all of you.
as u know or havent know.
i read ur blog. and i always try to do it as much as i can.
hell girl, when i read ur entry abt ur family..
u know how i feel? damn i feel so bad.
why. first cos im here and i cant go thru this with u, like in a way.
and its just not fair why it must be you who go thru the shits.
its never fair.
girl, aku tak tau cemane nak ckp tapi aku tau, aku faham ape kau nga rasekan.
it sucks, but like i always tell myself we don't live in an ideal world.
god has always made it unfair to test us.
but the worst guilt is that our loved ones feel it too..
ur mum, ur sister, ur younger sis who deosnt know anything.
they're all involved just because of a man.
a man whom all of u have always been looking up too.
no doubt, he is not being responsible for what he is suppose to do.
but another thing is, we as his children have no power at all to say anything.
kalau ckp lebih, dosa, kalau tak ckp kite yg derite.
its really sad tapi ape yg kite boleh buat?
im more worried for u girl.
aku taknak, sebab ni im gonna lose a chirpy, happy, cheerful friend.
you have been strong in all obstacles, give it another shot for this one k dear?
no matter wat happen. nvr let ur self esteem go down low because at that pt of time ure gonna lose practically everything.
keep ur heads up.. lumrah kehidupan.
u have to know that u are not going thru dis alone. ure totally not.
i am here, ur other friends are here.
we are just right here for u.
ur sister is there too. ur mum.
be with them.
u know, we know who is at fault..
stand up for your right k girl?
never never never give upon hope.
that's the most impt thing i want u to do.
ape2 jadi pon. dier tetap bpk kau.
brape bnyk kau benci dier, dier tetap bpk kau. wali kau.
and another impt person after our mum.
consider urself lucky dear that u still have ur family and friends to celebrate raye even if it hurts.
worse come to worse, u still have ur mum.
tu pon aku takble buat. aku tak mampu.
and sometimes i never felt more alone.
but that's ok.
life's unfair kan?
there's some things we just gotta accept without understanding.
try talking to him.
its ok if it faileda couple of time.
show it to him indirectly what's happening.
just stay positive k?
if u really wanna do something abt this situation, do it whole heartedly,
and im sure u can, and u will.
ive always known u girl.
its ok to cry. u have my shoulder to cry on.
if it makes u feel better, cry k?
pls be strong girl.
dun let this situation affect ur studies and all.
be with ur mum. she probably need u now.
if u need someone to listen, im all ears.
and if u need someone to laugh with or make u feel better, im always beside u too k?
aku, sebagai kawan kau sentiasa doakan kebahagiaan kau and keluarga kau k?
before i end,
i just wanna say this ff..
i dun wanna be someone who is there for u at hard times, but i wanna be a FRIEND who is just WITH you through rain or shine, tears and laughter.
in other words, i dun wanna be there for you, but i wanna be there with you.
with you, FF.
lots of love, hugs and kisses.
aqilah. FF.
a hug that lasts a lifetime.
a hug which means that our friendship will be forever.
bff. this song makes me cry thank you.
:( heeh.
duhai ayah bonda, ampunkan anakanda
tak dpt beraya bersama
jauh dari mata dekat dalam jiwa
degup kasihku tidak berubah
i love you all.
