20 April 2006
ok.
forgive me for the silence.
explain it later.
but im serious now k?
ok.
this is especially for my kawan baik selamanya.
hurhidayah md salleh.
dear kbs,
i noe i may b the last one to hear d news, so well again, but just give me a minute or two k?
u know girl. life is full of unplanned fate.
we cant choose them but we are forced to accept them even if we dont understand it.
and if we try to understand.. it'll hurt us alot.
its unfair ey? yeah. i know how u feel. really.
but like ive told bff this.. i'll say again. a totally different person. cos im saying this as ur kbs. girl.. evntho life may be unfair, i want to remind u that god is fair. he is very fair.
if u realise, my grandfather died, less than a yr ago.. bff grandfather died, a few months ago, and now its ur turn. u know girl. atleast u were there with ur grandad before he left. u visted him at the hospital and did all you can to be with him. even tho im here, i know. i just know it cos i know wat kind of a person are u. even that i cant do it cos i wasnt there when my grandad left. i wasnt with him. i may or may not understand but i just want u to know that ive been thru wat u are going thru now and i try my best to know how u feel.
girl, atleast you hve frens like me and bff to support u thru, for u to lean on, and for u to cry on. even that too, i cant do. i have no regrets. not even a bit. cos i just know, god is fair. and he has every reason to do anything. anytime.
i want you to know that ur grandad is safe with HIM. im very sure too he is a good granddad. u know girl.. atuk borek, cucu rintik? yea. even if i never met him.. im sure he is as nice as you. and for that, i dont think he wud want to see u sad. especially you.
he left you now girl. not forever cos he is waiting for you, bff and me up there. god loves him more than we even tried to love him. but ur grandad is watching you. ever wanting to see you smile. to see you laugh and never to see u cry. if u really love ur grandad girl, u'll be happy for him, so that one day, u can reunite with him. up there. becos i know, and you should know too, that he is waiting for you.
all my condolences to u n ur family. n ur granddad has all my prayers.
lastly, i am very sorry if i was the last to hear the news.
no no. it doesnt mean im here i should be the last.
cos even if im here, i am very near ur heart. im very sorry.
this is all i have for you.
i hope it would make u feel better.
take all my strength girl. everything.
i just want u to be strong.
i want to see you smile.
for one simple reason.
you are my kbs.
and if my kbs is hurt, i will hurt even more.
i love you.
lots of love,
kbs aqilah.
