23 December 2005
ok.
im serious now.
this is especially for my best fren forever. nur zahirah abdul rahim.
dear bff,
i noe i may b the last one to hear d news, but i just wanna say this k.
sometimes, in life, things never go our way.
most of the times to be exact.
it's mostly unfair,
its always not right.
but everything happens for a reason. evrything has a reason from HIM. evntho life may be unfair, i want to remind u that god is fair. he is very fair.
my grandfather passed away few months ago. u may notice i didnt react nor say anything in school. it doesnt mean i don't love him. i do. but i love him too much to even say a thing. he is my only granddadd. and the worst thing is, the last time i got to talk to him was weeks before he died. the last time i kissed his hands was weeks before he died. the last time i heard his voice was weeks before that. and.. the last time i saw his face was weeks before that.
girl, atleast u got the chance to look at him for the last time few days before. even that i can't do. i feel bad. really bad. but i chose to keep quiet cz i know, i know god is fair on whatever he do.
i want you to know that ur grandad is safe with him. im sure he is a good granddad to u n ur siblings. i'm sure he don't want to see u guys sad. iand im very sure he wants to see you happy in life.
he left u guys now. but it doesnt mean he left forever. batinnye, he is always with you. watching you. hoping to see his favourite grandchild smile. i hope u know what i mean.
satu2nye perkare tentang kematian ialah cinta allah pada umat2nye. god loves ur grandad more than anyone else. his job is over on earth and he is waiting for all of us, you and me.
if you really love ur granddad, do him a good favour girl - move on. he wants to see you happy. be a good sister to ur little ones. be a good daughter to ur parents, be a good granddaughter to him. n most imptly, be a good islam to allah.
its ur turn now to tell ur siblings. its ur responsibility girl.
all my condolences to u n ur family. n ur granddad has all my prayers.
lastly, i am very sorry i wasnt the first one to hear the news. im bad ryt. yeah.
this is all i have for you.
i hope u wud think over what i said.
you have all my strength girl. everything.
i just want u to be strong.
i want to see you smile.
for one simple reason.
you are my bff.
thick and thin, satu hati satu jiwa.
i love you.
lots of love,
aqilah.
